WOW

I didn't realize how long it has been since I have posted here on my blog. I am no longer in florida and the stress I was under there is now gone.

I had gained weight before moving to Florida. I have since lost those 8 pounds plus an additional 11 more. I need to find a scale to see how much more I have lost. I am feeling better each day as my weight goes away, my knees especially.

I do have a facebook page about weight loss and special topics as well. I will link this blog to it.

Epic Fail

Well, I said on August 3 that I would blog more often and that has not happened. ha! We still have not found work, Aerotek is being a pain in the ass for sure and it pisses me off. I have had headaches everyday, I think it is stress, allergies and it is dry in the house. Money is beyond tight thus making me super grumpy! LOL No way right?
I had gained 8 pounds before leaving and that upset me but I didn't have time to worry about it with packing up to move. I have since lost those 8 pounds and will be working on the next 10 to hit the road.
Mentally, not doing so well. I miss my family and friends though I don't think this is it. We have been thru hell the last year n half and I thought things would be better for our one year anniversary, NOT. We don't even have money to go to dinner, how depressing is that. I sure as shit hope next years anniversary is a lot better.
I am so grumpy the last two days now that even I can't stand myself.
Well, off to clean house and do errans before the next set of storms will hit.

long time

Well, it has been a long time since i have blogged. We have officially moved to florida. The two weeks more like a month leading up to this was very stressful. I did gain about 7 pounds. That I am not happy about but it was so hard to stay on track.
Now that we are here..I am getting myself back on track, getting my fruits n veggies in, vitamins, shakes and excercise. It is great having a pool available to excercise in which will help knock out those 7 pounds.

will keep blogging now that I am settled again.

july 12

What a day! I am glad it is almost over. It is amazing that you can be so stressed out and want to eat yourself to death and know that it is a bad decision and DID not follow thru with the wanting to eat everything in the house. The next two weeks will be really rough for sure, for we are packing up to move. I have not been following my weight loss plan the best but I am concious(sp) of it everyday. I don't want to gain it back and sure want to keep on losing.
I am off for now and love myself enough to not go back to my old ways.

Wednesday July 7th

What a week! I cannot shake off some more weight and I really need to. I feel very bloated, full and cannot seem to get rid of it. I am drinking more water as I was directed to by Whit. It helped a little but not enough. I am on my third month(so far) with no period. I am going thru the change slowly...ugh and will miss upto 4 months of periods and during this time I really start to bloat. I hate it! It is so uncomfortable...grrrr

I sure hope this gets better soon. I am having a garage sale friday and saturday on top of that I am trying to pack up our house to move to Florida....so stressed out which is not helping the situation. I lost three pounds and gained it back and I think it is the bloating....got get a grip on it and change that around.

weight gain :(

Well I gained three pounds yet I know why. We ate out alot though I controlled the amount. I was not being consistant with my tablets, protein snacks and my night time cravings are up. I am responsible for my weight gain and now I need to get it off plus three more.
I do not want to gain it all back. I have people complimenting me all the time about how great I look and the differences they can see.
I know what I did and what I need to do to change it. I love my new look and want to keep on a losin

Stressful life

I can tell you that life is sucking right now. I am tired of all the drama that life is holding right now,mainly from a 13 yr old boy who feels he is the boss and cannot figure out why we are not conforming to it.
Usually, when I am this stressed out I tend to eat. I am fighting this all day, asking myself if that is really the best thing for me. Will this battle of emotional eating every go away? I will not gain back the 27 pounds that I have lost because I love myself and want the best for myself.

Father's Day

Well, today is father's day. It was a good day and a stressful day all at the same time. I love my family and spending time with them, I for sure controlled my eating habbits which is a good thing.

My step son was with us today and for this week. It is so hard to be around him, he is causing so much trouble, he is counseling so that is something. Not only is he arguing over everything(typically teenager) he is disrespectful and mouthy. I am still pissed off that he got his cell phone back after about 6 weeks without it and jumped on the internet(he is not allowed) and blew it up. We only have 25 mb and he used 100 mb looking at naked women. WTF? who said he could do this? He felt this was ok even though he cannot tell us his pants are too tight and he needs new ones..Ugh.

The stress I am under while he is here is astronomical and I have to make sure that I do not over eat, eat when I truly don't need to and find away to deal with it.


I did lose three pounds last week after having 2 weeks of nothing. I am happy for that for sure and hope this additional stress doesn't take over and I allow myself to make poor choices.

10 weeks, 11 and 12

At 10 weeks I had 24 pounds off this old body...sweet. Week 11 and 12 I just maintained my weight but I got measured and have lost 14.75 inches which is fabulous. I am totally excited about the transformations I have made thus far. I am not upset that I maintaine for I know this is part of weight loss. I need to keep doing what I am doing and more weight will come off. I know I can do this. I have never lost 24 pounds before so I am excited.

Life is trying to knock me back right now but it will not where my weight it concerning. I love the show Ruby and Tenny said when people maintain they then will go back to their old ways. Not me...
Keep swinging life for this gal is not listening...I love myself

7 weeks 17 pounds down Yeah

My weight loss keeps on happening. I am down 17 pounds in 7 weeks. Sweet! I looked at a picture of me back in March of this year and you can definately see the changes in my face let alone my body. I am very happy with the changes in myself as far as food goes and with my body.

On Thursday, Ron started herbalife and I am so excited. I can't wait to see the changes in him.

Life has been hell for a couple of weeks so we will see how that affects my weight loss. I have not been eating to help my emotions which is good, if I think I am hungry I wait 5 mins. if I still feel that way then I get a healthy snack. Many changes are going on that exites me, food, body, life with Ron and with HERBALIFE!

May 16, Sunday...hmmm

Well, what can I say. Weight loss is coming along, inches being lost all are great. I really haven't worked out all of my food issues and I really need to do that. My mind has not really changed the portion size that I get in the evening. I either have to remove food or I will over eat. I do one or the other. I need to sit down and really wrap my brain around the portion size, why I still gather that much food on to my plate or even think that is ok to over eat. Interesting. Why, why when I know that I want to lose weight, change my body image am I not interested in changing my portion size. I still grab too much food.

My new goal along with my weight loss is to really strive to change my evening poriton size to one that is healthy for me. I need to stop defeating myself and this is one of the ways I do it is by over eating.

This week, that wil be over. I have to stop and treat myself right....I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH TO CHANGE

ok a change..yay!

Well, yesterday was Mother's Day and not a good day where my husband was concerned. Long story short, I could have decided to eat my way to happyiness but I didn't do it. Maybe I would have felt better had I ate crappy food but I can say that it would have felt better for the moment not for a long time. Bad habits from the past would be eating a bag of cookies and feeling good about it then beating myself up for eating all those cookies then eating again, beating myself up...the circle would be just that a circle, eat, beat, eat, beat. Now, I am doing what is good for myself, sticking to the plan for the plan works. I am 14.5 pounds down and don't plan to have it back anytime soon! go team!!

Starting week 6

Well, I am starting week 6 of my weight loss and I am excited to see what it brings. Last week was rough, I was laid off from my new job after 6 weeks on the job. This changed my schedule on what time I got up. That made it hard to have two shakes, two snacks plus my dinner. I had to re-evaluate my sleeing schedule so I can keep on track with my plan. I know that plan and stay with the plan for the plan works. I lost 2.5 pounds putting me 14.5 pounds all together!!

I am losing weight...how about you?

one month

I have been on herbalife for one month now. I have lost 12 pounds and lots of inches. I can say is this product works. The tea, when you take one teaspoon three times a day burns 480 calories without you doing a thing. I feel better, don't have cravings like I used to and my pms is a lot less than it used to be.

Have I created an interested? Contact me and I can give you more information on what I did. Why not just try the tea?

WOW

So, I went to work on tuesday and was permantely laid off from my job of 6 weeks. Damn! WTF didn't they know when they hired me that they could or couldn't afford me? That totally fucked up my life. Going to the store for candy, yep that flashed into my head and I answered with Fuck no. I have not gone thru all this changing to ruin it with old behaviors. I love CHarlene, I love the weight that has left, I love my new out look on food.

Today is day one not being employed. So not only am I working on my weightloss, I will also be looking for work again. I would even take a good paying parttime job if it even was available.

I am off for now and will update tomorrow.

life freakin sucks

Well, life just blows. Started last night and is still going strong today. BUT I did not turn to food. I am so upset that I thought about going to the store and loading up on candy. Still sounds good but why put back on the 9 pounds I have lost. Is that truly worth it? Wth who am I? This is not my normal thinking pattern for sure!!

I am quiting part of my life, why not. If you don't appreciate me then why am I here? HuH? That's what I am saying....I am out...screw everybody, I guess I need to become selfish maybe then life will be better. No more caring about my kids, my husband, family and friends, just care about me, me, me...is that what the world really wants?

Week 4 day 1 Friday.

Well hell. I lost 6 pounds for a total of 9 pounds down in three weeks! I freakin rock. Now that I have a good feel for food I am going to add exercise to my daily schedule. I can walk the treadmill at a 2.0 incline and 2.5 speed and I am able to walk 3/4 mile in 20 minutes. I am hoping after a week of this i will be able to speed up and go 1 mile in 20 minutes. Or at least a mile in 30 minutes. I can do this, make that fat go away! yeah me!!

Monday week 3 day 4

Today I added exercise to my daily routine. I am starting with 20 minutes, walking on a treadmill at the speed of 2.5 and at a .5 incline. At 20 minutes I was close to a half a mile. I was not winded nor did I try to go there. My knees hurt on a daily basis so I need to make sure I don't take the pain to out of control. After excerising I stretched my legs, hoping that it is more muscle pain then anything and is confirmed by massage therapist. True, my arthritis does hurt but where it is hurting is NOT bone but muscle. It made a lot of sense and now I can tell when it is hurting and why. I also know that when the pain is my arthritis and what to do. Before I kept treating the arthritis and nothing works. Now, when I treat the muscle I get results!!

I am CHARLENE......

Saturday...day 2 of week 3

Well, the last two weeks have been life changing. I can say that I had one day that was rough, emotionally, craving wise and calories. That particular day I ate way over my calories. I knew what I was doing, I knew the choices that I made. I know that choosing to eat over my calories was my choice and I know that it could have been a lot worse. I was trying to have that time of month(long story) and my chocolate cravings were there. I did have an ice cream sandwich. It did not satisfy my craving and I wanted to go and get my childrens chocolate and eat it all. That would have been two bags of chocolate malt eggs. I could have and I would not have felt better.

This is was a great mental change for me. Normally, I don't think about what I eat, how much I eat or anything else. I write down everyday all that I eat, go over each day and look where I can make changes at. When we went for pizza, I ordered the thin crust mostly veggies and one meat. I had 3 pieces when I should have had two. Normally, we get bread sticks...me eating at least two, ordering pizza, eating at least 4 pieces plus two glasses of pop. So, eating three pieces, drinking water and not being full/stuffed was a great improvement.

I have to look at each day and really be amazed at the changes I have made. Yes, I still have high calorie days (only two last week) yet I still made good choices. I have NEVER thought about what I eat, how much, is it good for me, etc. That is a wonderful thing. I am very proud of myself. It is funny, the changes I have made, balancing my body and the chocolate doesn't taste so good!! I don't drink coffee anymore, don't drink any pop which is huge for me.

Funny how when you are doing well, people ask what you are doing then they try and knock you down. Guess what!! You can't do it. Everyone cannot do what I do and I couldn't do what life change plan they are on. You have to do what works for YOU and not try to destroy someone else because they are not doing what you are.

Last week, I did not lose weight but I know I lost inches, I can feel it, see it and know I am doing what I need too.

Day 12

Today is a stressful day for sure. The weekend was great for my birthday and sad for we had to say good bye to Brett who lost his life after an 8 year battle with cancer.
Food choices were rough though I knew it would be hard and I did well. Today is very hard. I can tell that I am going to start my period thru my body changes and the cravings are killing me. Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate....is what I want and I want it right now. and I mean NOW.

So, I am drinking my water and telling my cravings to go away....

Day 10 and 11

Day 10 went very well. I had drank the night before but watched how much I drank so that I wasn't putting on weight back on. I can say I danced my ass off so that helped to burn those calories.
Today, we went to the memorial for our beloved nephew. Again, food choices had to be watched. I did eat, smaller portions and drank lots of water. When we got home I drank my shake and looked at how much I ate over the last two days...could I change what I did, what I ate....yes but thinking about it and leaving the table hungry not stuffed..yeah!

Today is my birthday...yeah me! There were food at work today, I did have some of all of it through out the day. Small, small portions and lots of water. Ron took me out to dinner and I did eat again out of my calories yet I still looked at what I was putting in my mouth, how bad is the food for me and did I really want to eat it? The little cake was to die for and I had two very tiny bits and knew that all my work was not worthy throwing it away over this killer cake so Ron ate it....yay Ron.

Day 8 and 9

Friday was a great day. We went to dinner and ate smaller amounts than I normally do, drank water and left hungry. Meaning, I didn't over eat like I normally do and we did not order appetizer which is great for me. I have to know that when faced with unhealthy choices that I can find what is good for me. We had pizza. I chose thin crust, with veggies and one meat. I could have had thick crust loaded with meat plus an appetizer...I did a great job!

Today is two days before my 45 birhtday and we are partying tonight. Again, this could be a disaster for I could easily eat and drink like crazy..AND I have been planning this night, what I can eat, how much water I will need to have and to watch the alcohol because it is empty calories. I know that I will go over my calories for the day but I have to know by how much, can I live with it, how will I feel tomorrow. I have NEVER thought about this before, cared, lost weight and feel great.

I can do this, be successful and still lose weight ...... BECAUSE I LOVE MYSELF

Day 7....success

Today was the big weigh in and I lost 3 pounds, 2 inches off my stomach and an inch off my butt. Yay! I am so excited. This is the first time I have been truly successful at weight loss.

I proved to myself and others around me that you can find a plan that works for you, stick to it and be successful. I have a great friend who is on weight watchers and is doing great. Just because it didn't work for me doesn't mean it can't work for others.

I feel great. I am having Ron take pictures and I will post so that I can see the difference....yay!

Day 6

Today was another good day. I drank water like crazy and ate as I should. We did go out to dinner. I had a dinner salad with raspberry vin. only 1/2 a package and a chili dog with only half the bun. I did eat 4 fries and I was still hungry but knew I didn't need those fries to junk me up and ruin what I have done so far. I was so proud that I stopped at 4 and walked away hungry. I was not starving nor did I truly need more food, my fat cells just want more and they can't have it!

Tomorrow is a scarey day, I go in for my first weigh in. I don't think I have lost pounds but I do believe that I lost inches and that is great. I haven't felt like I lost inches yet when I sat in my van and put the arm rest down, it went right down and didn't get stuck on my fat thighs...Even my hubby noticed and said something...yeah!

Day 5...a better day

Today was much better than yesterday. I still feel bloated but not to the extent of yesterday. I am wondering if I need more fiber in my diet.

For dinner tonight I fixed spagetti, this could be dangerous especially for over eating. I made wheat campelinni(sp), sauce, green beans and garlic bread. I had 2 small pieces of bread which is good since I normally have 4 or 5 pieces. The wheat noodles rocked and will get those ones again for sure. I had the chance to over eat big time. I watched my calories today so that I had calories to have a dinner that kept me in my goal and so that I didn't over eat as well.

I am proud of myself for not over eating yesterday when I was having a bad day. Normally, if I am having a bad day then I also over eat, eat junk food then beat myself up for it.

Today really kicked in the eating correctly, watching my portions, am I eating too much white sugar, white bread, white pasta...etc. yay me!!

Day 4 and it is a bad day

Today is a bad, bad, bad day. I have been going thru the change for awhile now. I have been missing periods up to 4 months at a time. During this time I will be bloated and miserable.

This is my second month with no period and I am bloated as hell. Feel fat as hell, look like a big fat slob. Arrrggggg I eat when I should, eat the amounts I should, I exercise and feel worse not better. Last time I went to the dr about it she told me it was because I was fat. In fact, that was her answer to all my problems in life, Your fat. Damn woman, you think I didn't know that??

My friend Lori, trying to inspire me, sends me a video of a lady who had gastro bypass and there is a video of her before and after pictures. She looks fabulous and I burst into tears. Will I ever lose this weight or is this my fate? Am I going to die like this? Never changing, always fat and such a disappointment to others?

I have never felt so fat in my life before...damn......

Day 3

Today is Easter Sunday and we went to my father in laws for dinner. I actually did well. I did feel that my portion control was not small in size and when I ate everything on my plate, I was not full but I did not get more food. That was great for me.

The bad part about today was when we got home I had more food to eat instead of my shake. I am not going to beat myself up over it instead I will look at why I chose to go off my plan when it was neccessary.

I cannot be successful if I do not stick to the plan. There will be days like today that I made a bad choice and I need to figure out how to not do that. There was no reason not to have my shake as I have already done the last few days. I cannot set myself up for failure as I have done in the past. Only I can make the decision to change and to stick with it.

I want to be able to inspire others, make my husband proud of me, only I can make that happen. I love myself enough to change, realize that when I have a bad day only I can make the next day different and to learn why I do what I do....

Happy Easter All!

Happy Easter. Today could be a challenge since we are having lunch/dinner at my FILs house today. I can choose to overeat or choose wisely. Normally, holidays mean over eating but it doesn't have to be that way.

I got up and had my shake with a banana this morning.I will have my snack here in a bit before we head out for the afternoon. I will take my snack and shake with me so that I am prepared and staying on target. I have done well the last few days and will not let this day set me back.

I did have some chocolate last night for I feel if I deprive myself then I will crave it more and not have control. I had one Cadbury creme egg and it did not taste as great as I thought it would. Normally, I would eat all in site so I am proud of myself for not going that direction for sure.

I am learning to look ahead, any up coming events or holidays that will change my eating schedule for the day? Yes, then how can I prepare myself to be successful and not go back to my old habbits. I can only be successful if I look ahead, prepare, stay on track and believe in myself.

If I do not stick to this change then I will DIE. My weight is escalading out of control and it is no ones fault but my own. I put the food in my mouth, I eat food that is not good for me, eat portions that are huge and do not excerise. This is not McDonalds fault or anyother restaurant for I chose to eat it all knowing it was too big and not good for me.

I wish everyone a wonderful day.

Bad day

I am having such a bad day...ugh. Ron was up all night with food poisoning and is sick today. Not sure what hit me in the head but I have been bitch centeral all afternoon. I have eaten correctly, had coffee so that I wouldn't get a headache but DAMN!

I cannot let go of this feeling, I even went to the store for 30 minutes and that didn't even help. I am not hungry nor am I craving sweets, dont feel like I am missing anything but holy hell I am grumpy.

I don't want anyone talking to me, I don't want to answer questions, I don't want to explain things, etc., etc., etc. AHHHHHHH I need this to stop....

Day 2

Well today started out rough. My husband was up all night sick so I will be taking care of him today and I have no problem with that.

I let the dogs out and fed them. I drank my tea and made my shake with instant coffee in it. I can say that this made the shake a chocolate mocha, very good but I think I need more coffee. I have a horrible headache now which I am guessing it is from the lack of caffeine. I will have to put coffee back into my system for a few days and slowly work my way off of it.

I am off for now, going to have my mid morning snack and I am guessing coffee.

Day 1

This is my first day on my weightloss plan. I say plan when I mean it is a life style change all the way around. I did struggle with my water intake today and felt over full so I backed off some of my water. I think it is safer to slowly increase my water and know that this is a great way to clean out my system. I have two wonderful coaches Cindy and Whit along with my hubby Ron.

I will say that I chose to go on the herbalife program to lose weight. After looking over different plans, trying different things. I felt this was the best program for me and I am so excited to start losing this weight.

One time I did feel hungry today as if I didn't get enough to eat at lunch. I looked over what I ate, did I eat wisely and the answer was yes. I am so used to overeating that eating correctly was pretty hard to do. I drank some water, gave it some time and realized that I was not hungry anymore! Yeah me!!

I stuck to my program today and I am so proud of myself. I thought about junk food and how I really need it, then I realized that this is not the correct way to think. Yes, depriving myself will make me crave it more, I drank water and thought it over, chosing NOT to do it!

I totally believe in myself, my program and my coaches.